novelweb Chapter 177 Please let her go
Chapter 177 Please let her go
Xu Zhi took Gu Jichen to the terrace.
This terrace is not open, but enclosed with transparent glass, so it is at the same temperature as the indoors, and the cold outside air cannot penetrate.
The terrace is crescent-shaped, with an area of more than 20 square meters, but it does not look very spacious, because there are many potted plants on it, as well as rocking chairs, indoor swings, plush pillows, etc., which fill the entire terrace to the fullest, but it is not very spacious. Warm enough.
There is a bookshelf placed against the wall. The glass door is clean and there are many things inside, the most conspicuous of which is a star-shaped trophy.
Her Best Actress trophy, her glory.
Xu Zhi moved a simple wooden chair and motioned for Gu Jichen to sit on it, saying, "Momo bought this house because of the terrace. She likes it here very much and often sits here to bask in the sun when she rests." , blow the wind, and sit there all day long.”
"Dry?"
"Yes, let's blow the wind." Xu Zhi said, "This terrace used to be open. You can also see that other people's homes are basically open. It is very comfortable to blow the wind in spring and autumn. Why is it closed? Because once, Momo almost Jump from here."
Gu Jichen's heart trembled.
Xu Zhi squinted her eyes, as if she was caught in a distant memory: "That was four years ago, when she was 19 years old, not long after she was recognized by the Lu family. Once she came back from the Lu family, she sat here for a long time. When I came out from the shower, I found her standing here."
Xu Zhi patted the surface of the one-meter-high marble fence on the terrace. The fence was only about thirty centimeters thick. It was almost impossible to imagine how dangerous Jiang Mo was standing on such a narrow fence.
"I was really scared to death that time. I jumped on her and pulled her down. We both fell hard. I was very lucky afterwards. I found her quickly when I was taking a shower that day, and my movements were very light. It didn't scare her...if there was a slight mistake, she would be gone now."
Xu Zhi's eyes slowly moved from the balcony fence to Gu Jichen's face: "Such similar situations have happened many, many times. It's not that Momo wants to die, she is actually a very positive and sunny person. Those dangerous actions are She did it unconsciously, and there were many things she didn’t even remember afterwards.”
"For example, what happened today may be forgotten after she wakes up. Doctor Song said that this is a kind of self-protection of her body." Xu Zhi sniffed, "I also hope she can forget, because she said However, she doesn’t want others to see her being sick, saying that she looks bad and looks like a madman, and she cares about her image.”
Gu Jichen looked at the clean transparent glass in front of him and felt that the glass seemed to have sealed his heart, making it difficult for him to breathe.
"Dr. Song and I were both very afraid of her getting sick because it was really too dangerous. During the two years when she was being treated, I really didn't get a good night's sleep. I was afraid that if I didn't pay attention to her, she would She is no longer here. Later, she gradually recovered and was away from those dangers. I was really, really happy. I thought she was finally safe."
"But Mr. Gu, it was you who broke her balance." Xu Zhi bit her lower lip, suppressing the sourness in her heart, and said forcefully, "Actually, it's my fault. I asked her to submit her resume to you. , and then so many things happened by accident, and it got to this point."
"I regretted it more than once. I wish I hadn't let her go to you."
"I'm not a very qualified assistant. I'm not smart, and I don't have much ability. Momo even takes care of me for many things. Her agency contract is managed by the company, and I can't help. I All she needs to do is take care of her life. The only thing I suggested that would help her career was to let her send you her resume."
Having said this, Xu Zhi shook her head and smiled bitterly at herself: "I regret it so much."
Gu Jichen closed his eyes and breathed hard, but to no avail.His chest seemed to be blocked by a mass of cement. Not only was it so choked that he couldn't breathe, it was also so swollen that his chest almost burst.
He pursed his thin lips tightly and asked in a low voice: "Did she feel very uncomfortable when she was sick?"
"Yes, she can't control her emotions. She is bipolar, either extremely excited or extremely depressed. When she is excited, she can stay awake for several days. Sometimes she recites lines and recites a whole book by herself. He recited a whole book of lines, and his mouth was cracked and bleeding, and his voice was so hoarse that he could no longer make a sound. Sometimes it was acting, where one person played several roles and performed in a haphazard manner, causing injuries wherever he bumped. Or I played the piano and sang until my fingers bled, my nails cracked, and the strings were dyed red."
Thinking of those past times, Xu Zhi let out a long sigh and continued: "When I'm depressed, I either sleep for several days without waking up, or I sit there without talking, but maybe I will bang my head hard the next second. She could hit the wall, climb up the window sill, or find some sharp objects to prick and scratch herself until there was blood. In order to prevent these situations, no dangerous objects were placed in the room, but she always had a way. Remember that there are One time, the brand sent a beautiful dress, but she tore open the hanger and stuffed her head into it, trying to hang herself up."
Xu Zhi's voice gradually choked up, and she swallowed hard: "In order to prevent her from doing that, do you know what the hospital did? Tie her up, tying her hands and feet with chains during the day, and tying her with cloth strips at night. On the bed. I am really too excited when I meet her and I can’t control it. I will stun her just like I did today.”
She stared at Gu Jichen and gritted her teeth: "Mr. Gu, can you imagine? A glamorous movie queen and a big star surrounded by stars, secretly, like a dog, was chained up in a place less than ten square meters. In my own room. I took more medicine than food, and I had to be watched when I went to the bathroom. It was totally disrespectful."
The corners of Xu Zhi's lips trembled violently. She could no longer control her emotions and sobbed.With an exit, the worry and anxiety she had accumulated all night turned into a raging tide at this moment, rushing out. She squatted on the ground and cried loudly.
"I don't want to see her like that anymore. It's so pitiful. Mr. Gu, I know I'm not qualified to ask you for anything, but really, please let her go. She really can't afford it."
Xu Zhi covered her face, shrugged her shoulders violently, and cried hoarsely.
As for Gu Jichen, he had never felt the power of language like he did now.Xu Zhi's words just now created dark and depressing scenes that appeared before his eyes.
He thought that his three years abroad were difficult enough.It turns out that there is another kind of difficulty in this world.
Different from his fighting and killing, it was a kind of corruption and erosion, destroying a person from the inside out in an unstoppable manner.
And he finally knew where the stubbornness and resilience in Jiang Mo's eyes that had always impressed him most came from.It was the result of countless days and nights of hard struggle when she was ill.
His enemy is external, but her enemy is a trapped beast inside her body, not only eating away at her blood, but also destroying her will.
She took a lot of medicine, suffered a lot, and with the help of countless doctors and friends, she suppressed the trapped beast.She stood up again, fresh, radiant, and beautiful.
But now, this trapped beast seems to be hooked out again.
And he is the culprit.
Everyone was begging him to let her go.
People who are used to strategizing now feel the long-lost confusion and helplessness.
How did it get to this point?The relationship between husband and wife is obviously close, but they seem to be enemies.
There had been misunderstandings before, and he did do many things wrong.But ever since he knew who she was, he had always wanted to treat her well and protect her.
But there are always so many mistakes that can still cause harm to her. For example, last night, he really just wanted to protect her.
It seemed that as long as things related to her, they would be beyond his control.
Before Gu Jichen agreed or rejected Xu Zhi's request, he heard Jiang Mo's voice coming from behind: "Zhizhi, what are you doing sitting on the ground?"